I'm web-surfing a lot these days, and I keep finding pages talking about how nice the weather's been and they can't believe the nice weather/it's almost summer/ feels like summer ect. Did I miss something? I mean, I saw the weather was nice. I went jogging during the evening. I stayed late after a jazz rehearsal to watch the sun set with a nice view. I mentioned that I wanted to have a pic-nic one weekend, but it never materialized. Regardless, it remains that I never noticed how explicitly nice the weather was.
Most of the time when I'm not noticing the weather I'm trying to figure out if I can pinpoint the location of things by feeling their body heat. That might be an exageration, but it is a fun time when I'm bored at a friend's house.
The remainder of the time I'm not noticing the weather I'm wondering about the nature of things. Not The Science of Things, since that's the name of a CD. Mostly it's just stuff about how in the world enough gold and silver were amassed elsewhere so that my watch could not be of either if I wanted it to be my watch.
I still plan to have a pic-nic, but I think by the time it does materialize it will be so far into allergy season that I won't remember it, even if I was the one who drove...
23:02 06/04/01
The other day a good friend of mine's mother told me to make sure to remind my friend at 75 that he wasn't supposed to be using a walker. I thought nothing of it at the time.
Then I forgot about noticing the weather and thought about stuff.
It was then that realized I actually intended to be around to tell my friend he wasn't supposed to be using a walker. I (possibly dangerously) thought some more, and realized I had intentions to stick around with all my friends until we died off.
I've been recently looking at several colleges I know my friends won't be attending.
I tell myself I'll keep in touch, altough that thought is probably just the product of my current paradigm: I talk and think about my friends as if I will be around at 75 to tell them off. This isn't likely to change soon.
But I do know that I'll be there on my friend's 75th birthday, telling him to get rid of that walker. :)
19:39 07/24/01
I was browsing WIRED News the other day (well, today, actually), and came across a story about people defecting from Napster, and few wanting to come back. This seemed obvious, since anything associated with Napster meant "sell-out". Then I thought about what selling-out meant... and it seemed to me that it would be the embodiment of the American Dream. I mean, it's making money, and since that's the only desire I've seen for the past week (but not two weeks-- ah, the Honors Colloquium at Texas Tech was great! Intelligent conversation... how I miss it... :) with Debate Camp over in Cameron. I've never seen such greedy people... Mind you, not everyone was that way. Just a lot of them.
16:50 09/15/01
I've always been rather a "big picture" type of person. Perhaps "big picture" is not the acurate phrase to describe it, but it will do for now. I see the finite nature of a lot of things around me-- trends, jobs, unfortunate circumstances, and some relationships. Recently, though, whether through the major incidents in the news or the people I've been talking to, I've been a lot more grounded to the here-and-now. Instead of looking at a friendship and thinking I really wish there was some way to continue this in college, I'm more inclined to think I'm glad they're my friend. I don't know how long this will last, but it's been refreshing for the past few days.
14:00 09/16/01
It's been almost a week since the attacks (I keep wanting to say bombings, and I suppose in a way they are) on NYC and the Capitol. Again, that universal fear of the unknown has been trying to creep upon myself (and I'm sure a lot of my generation.) This time the unknown is that of war-- I know I've been through Desert Storm, but that time nobody tried to do serious damage to the mainland. It's even a different type of war altogether-- we've got no one country or government from whom we're trying to get what we want. We're dealing with terrorists. The thing about terrorists is that they don't give a flip about international law. If they've got the means to use, say, chemical or biological agents, they aren't really going to care about the X treaty or convention. And in the U. S. we're rather unprepared for chemical agents, and almost completely unprepared for biological agents. Biological agents are truly the scary ones to me. Chemical agents have a rather limited range. Biological agents have the potential to travel, and quickly, across an entire contitent through the convenience of air travel and our winding highways. Releasing a biological agent into a city's water supply (I admit, it would have to be very hardy to live through all the chlorine) would be a rather easy way to take out nearly the entire population. It's such a wonderful age we live in...
22:22 11/06/01
I don't like my cell phone. It's been a nice phone, I used to like it quite
a bit, actually. I don't like it tonight. It rang, I grabbed it, the battery
somehow lost contact with the, well, contacts. I hastily turned it back on to
find a voicemail. I check the voicemail, and try to call back... but the number
wasn't picked up by the voicemail service. The message was from my Ryan, telling
me that he was going to be a while... which was incredibly considerate of him,
but makes me even angrier at my shoddy celly phone for missing his call.